"Roxanne, mag-asawa ka na!!".. "Roxie, bakit single ka pa?".. "Roxie, you’re not getting any younger, it’s time for you to get marry".. ANO BA!!!... Ba’t ba atat na atat kayong mag asawa ako… sino bang magpapakasal, sino bang makikisama, at higit sa lahat sino bang gagastos at mamomroblema. Ok fine... I am getting old(daw?) kaka-28 ko lang kaya! So what? Matagal pa ko mawawala sa kalendaryo. Are there any laws in the universe that says ‘you are born to get married’? Hello!!.. Of course naisip ko din mag-asawa, but what can I do? I am happier being single. It is true, I am. Sa lahat ng ayoko, me nangengealam saken. Nagpapanting ang ears ko kapag pinapakealaman ang bawat galaw ko at minomonitor ang bawat lakad ko. I have my own planner-traditional&online; I don’t need any human scheduler. Siguro nga I was born to live alone. Nasobrahan siguro ako ng independence. I am used to planning and running my own life, my life is my business. Of course I’m not closing myself to be in any relationship, masarap kaya ma-inlove at makilig. I love being pampered. But commitment? Uh uh. No, no, and no. Not yet, maybe in the future, everything changes. But right now, it is sure, I am pretty sure, AYOKO PA! Bakit ba ayokong pakawalan ang status kong single? Simple, I held my own time, my own money especially my own life. I don’t have to cook for someone, to wash clothes of someone else’s nor clean the house when I’m not in the mood. I can go anywhere I want at any time without having to ask permission to someone. I hate arguments, grudges, and bitterness. Ok, masarap daw me ka-cuddle, masarap daw gumising na me katabi. Hello! Nasa pinas tayo, mainit!! Isa din sa lahat ng ayoko ay ang kinukulit. Hot-headed ako, I get angry and annoyed easily kaya kawawa lang ang magiging partner ko kung sakali. Mainipin ako at madaling magsawa. I do not stay in one place. Sabi ko nga eh, NPA ako, no permanent address. Ganun din sa marriage, natatakot ako na baka hindi ako magtagal at bigla akong sumuko. Wala pa namang divorce dito sa pinas. Siguro pag nagkaroon na ng divorce dito, pwede kong pag-isipan :D. I’m a christian, a Roman Catholic, pero open-minded ako. Kung ayaw na, pakawalan na. No one can judge me but God ika nga nung isang friend ko. Hindi naman siguro ako parurusahan ni God sa paniniwala kong ito. For as long as wala akong ginagawang masama at inaagrabyadong tao. Mas masama pa nga ang magkunwari and wear different masks everyday pretending to be happy and contended with their own relatioship. But anyway, back to the topic itself.. hindi naman ako bato, kinikilig din naman ako kapag nakakapanood o nakakabasa ng mga teeny bopper love stories. Siyempre nangarap din ako ng fairy tale . In fact, naiinggit nga ako ke Kate Middleton at nasilayan siya ni Prince William, (<- hay mas bagay kaya kame). Kaso nga lang, hindi ako kinikilig sa sarili kong fairytale, parang walang dating saken ang sarili kong love story. Nagkakaboyfriend din naman ako, kaso nga lang wala eh. Di kami nag-click, di ko naramdaman yung sinasabi nilang spark. Nu ba un? Unfair nga sa kanila eh, masyado silang naging mabait para saken. Aw!, ‘di naman ako ganun kasalbahe. Masyado lang akong cold sa mga past relationship ko. Hindi ako naeexcite sa mga dates namin, siguro nung mga first or second dates. And then the succeeding dates… no comment and no offense. Wala namang mali sa kanila, ako lang talaga. Sabi nga ng mga friends ko, masyado daw akong choosy and intimidating. Di naman eh, gusto ko lang talaga ng hindi boring na relationship (I get easily bored, emong-emo lang eh haha) ayoko nang ako ang nagdadala ng isang relasyon, I don’t like questions (“Women don’t like questions” ika nga ni Angelina Jolie sa The Tourist which is true). Ayoko nang lagi na lang akong tinatanong sa lahat nang bagay ultimo pagkain at kung saan pupunta. Siyempre naiintindihan ko naman that you just wanted to please your girl by asking what she want pero namaaan, ikaw ang nag-aya, you should initiate, you should have a plan before demanding a date. Pero hindi naman ako nagger, in fact I never nagged at my boyfriends (2 lng nmn) before. When I get annoyed, I just walked off, no arguments, no talks. Naiba na ata ako ng topic, I just wanted to emphasize reasons why I prefer NOT to be in a relationship. Of course there are times I am thinking of having a boyfriend again especially when I get pressured by the people around me, para matigil lang sila, but I don’t want to jump into a relationship again without certainty. Being single is a once in a lifetime experience that I want to savour and enjoy. If the time comes for me to settle down, I’ll make sure that he really is the right one I want to spend my whole life with, dahil narealize ko na mahal din pala ata ang mag-file divorce haha. But if not, and I am really bound to be a spinster forever, then so be it. I will enjoy my life for as long as it takes, gasgas na pero hellooo... ano naman ang gagawin ko, magmukmok forever? Nevah! I will see you with your wedding ring on your finger, but me, I got the world in my hands and will spin on my fingers.
